Friday, October 30, 2009
I Am Back
Quite a bit over a month ago, I announced that I would be taking a break from my blog. This break was not a spa break, a knit break or a stop and smell the flowers break. It was a life is far too big to stop and write break. A what would I write if I blogged break. A life would be too overwhelming if I actually put it in print break. It may have been a good idea to keep writing, to break from Blue Plate Mondays, and just write about life, but I was worried that too much life here would scare me, scare you. So, in the best interest of my mental health and yours, I took a break.
I am back. Well, some form of me is back. I recently learned that we never really go back to our old selves after a stressful life event even though we look forward to going back there, that is, to the selves we have known before. I am certainly not the same woman I was in August and I am okay with that I think.
I see myself, and my family, in a place of recovery. Sometimes I do this. I work to recover, to heal, and to think about the fire through which I have walked. As life is sometimes, the fire is not burning high, this week, but there are still embers to negotiate. I lean on the things I love, those I love, and tentatively step back in to the game.
I want to be sure to share that a small, new love has seen us through. Our precious new grandchild, Lucy, spends three to four nights with us each week. She reminds me of what a newborn does, cry. And, does not do, sleep. She reminds me how good babies smell, how babies somehow know to snuggle when we need it most, and how life goes on even when I think I would like to get off. She needs us and we need her.
Returning to my blog is a bit overwhelming as there is so much to catch up with. To begin with, my creative space needs some tender loving care, there are commitments I have yet followed through on and creative promises I have yet to keep. This is where my work will begin. In the meantime, Halloween is nearly here and I have a blue checked dress to sew, a red beret to crochet, and some candy shopping to do. It is a busy time.
You are missed and I look forward to having coffee with again on a more regular basis.